–Behind the Scene–

Suatu hari, seorang teman bercerita padanya.

"Nyebelin banget, deh! Malam-malam. Pulang ke rumah, lelah. Lapar. Yang bisa saya temukan cuma sup kalengan yang harus dipanaskan. Eh, ternyata.. MAGNETRON RUSAK. Brengsek!"

Ia hanya tersenyum. Lalu berkata:

"Kamu tak perlu Magnetron, Sayang. Just put the soup in my heart. Hati saya hangat. Bahkan cukup hangat untuk memanaskan sup dingin."

Sang teman cuma memandangnya dengan tatapan aneh.

Soms voel je dat de wereld niet
meer rond is.

Dat het gewoon een vierhoekige
nauwe kamer is,

waarin je je ellende probeert te
verbergen.

Of een klein driehoekje waar je bijna
om valt.

Dan wil je dat er armen om je heen
slaan.

Want soms voel je je
buitengesloten,

Van de wereld.

Van de mensen.

Van het leven.

Van jezelf.

Over time, I’ve been building my castle of love
Just for two, though you never knew you were my reason
I’ve gone much too far for you now to say
That I’ve got to throw my castle away

Over dreams, I have picked out a perfect come true
Though you never knew it was of you I’ve been dreaming
The sandman has come from too far away
For you to say come back some other day

And though you don’t believe that they do
They do come true
For did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me

Over hearts, I have painfully turned every stone
Just to find, I had found what I’ve searched to discover
I’ve come much too far for me now to find
The love that I’ve sought can never be mine

And though you don’t believe that they do
They do come true
For did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me

And though the odds say improbable
What do they know
For in romance
All true love needs is a chance
And maybe with a chance you will find
You too like I
Overjoyed, over loved, over you, over you

–Stevie Wonder–

**heb twee uurtjes hier zitten huilen**

Because happiness is a memory

it exists because at the same time

the reverse is also true

I mean this: because happiness

reminds us of happiness it pursues

us and therefore we flee from it

and vice versa, I mean this: that we

look for happiness because it

hides in our memories and

vice versa, I mean this: happiness

must exist somewhere at some time because

we remember it and it remembers us.

(Rutger Kopland)

..translation by James Brockway

PS: Tasha, masih inget puisi yang kita bahas panjang lebar di Kansas ini, nggak? Gue masih ada versi aslinya, tuh! ahahahaha..

"Jadi?"
Saya menggeleng.
"Kok? Dia kan baik."
Saya menggeleng lagi.
Lalu menggumam, "Sayang, kadang ‘baik’ saja tidak cukup."

"Yeah," sanggahnya, "tapi hanya ‘cinta’ juga tak pernah cukup. Bodoh."

Saya hanya bisa menghela napas panjang.

At least I’ve done
the most important thing:

..L.O.V.I.N.G..

It should be is enough for me.

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Maybe all this love thing is just a grown-up version of Santa Claus. Just
a myth that we have been fed since childhood,

so we keep buying magazines and joining clubs and doing therapy and
watching movies with hip hop songs played over love.

Montages in these pathetic attempt to explain why our beloved Santa
keeps getting caught in the chimney.

(Kate & Leopold)

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Als liefde
een kwestie van blijven is, kan iemand me dan komen zeggen dat ik blijf?

Op zo’n
manier dat ik luister?
Zoals ik luisterde naar mijn vader en moeder die zeiden dat ik moest gaan
slapen.
‘Maar ik ben nog lang niet moe!’
‘Niet zeuren, tanden poetsen!’
‘Ik ben hier nog niet aan toe!’
‘Niet zeuren, blijf!’

Tjitske Jansen

    So, I cry and I pray and I beg,
    Love me, love me, say that you love me,
    Fool me, fool me, go on and fool me,
    Love me, love me, pretend that you love me,
    Lead me, lead me, just say that you need me.
   

    So I cry and I beg for you to
    Love me, love me, say that you love me,
    Lead me, lead me, just say that you need me,
    I can’t care about anything but you.   

    Lately, I had desperately pondered,
    Spent my nights awake and I wondered,
    What I could have done in another way to make you stay.

    Reason will not teach a solution,
    I will end up lost in confusion,
    I don’t care if you really care as long as you don’t go..

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